t's so much easier to offer a helping hand to others than be the one needing the help, yourself. It's so easy to assure a friend that everything will be okay but so hard to tell it to yourself when you're the one facing the odds. It's easier to tell somebody what he/she ought to do than be that somebody and follow even your own teachings.

I'm so willing to help someone in need, but so reluctant to accept one myself. I find strength in helping others. I find strength knowing that someone needs me. And now that I am the one needing the help myself, I feel so weak. So small. 

But no matter how much I deny, I need someone to allay me of my fears. I badly need someone to tell me everything will be okay. That I'll get through this. That this is just a part of GOD's wonderful plan for me. Sadly, I don't know who to run to anymore...